It has been a rough week for me especially because my dad’s birthday. He would have been 71 on the 24th of this month. It was so rough. I miss him so much. I sit here and have this monitor on and I am unable to focus. The memories of my dad are running across my mind. All the happy memories to the not so happy ones especially seeing him lifeless in a coffin. He did not wake up when I kiss his forehead and that was the first I ever done that. I lost both sets of my grandparents and I never did that for them. I attempt to live life, but I feel so guilty and I do not know what to do. I play this SL game to get my mind off things, but it brings back memories when he would come in my room and ask me what I was doing. Then again, it hurts to play this as well. Thinking to myself that I have so many good people here to talk to me when I am low to the people who really do not want to be bothered and do not know what to say. I do not know. I have so many things on my mind. The biggest thing I been thinking is how to see my dad for a couple of minutes just to tell me he is okay. I am scared and restless. Where is me?
dress: .::Dead Dollz::. Ligeia Absence Gown, hair: *Zibska ~ Pero, eye makeup: Zibska ~ Magali Eyeshadow (smoke), necklace: Zibska ~ Avalon (available @ L’accessoires ), and gloves: :AE: Appliers for SLINK Hands Tattoo Opera Gloves
Pose: grafica ~ stance-004