Its been close to three weeks and dad is still not here. My dad is not here physically. I should accept that he is gone. But, I cannot! I saw his lifeless body, the closing of the casket, the casket going in the ground, and the dirt placed on top of it. I felt his cold body with my lips as I said goodbye to his physical form. As I write this, I am crying. I was blessed with the greatest father in the world and the more I learned about him. The more I grieve. This is not easy for me and everything in life to me is whatever now in both worlds. I been fortunate to have some friends to help on Second Life to ease my mind. But the when they leave I am alone. I have my daughter who loves me unconditionally and has been nothing but strong, but mommy cannot be. I even considered sending her to California to be with my boyfriend as her mom grieves. I cannot do that either because I need her more than ever. I am gone. The old me is gone. I am not sure how long I will live in the darkness. But, I know its whatever to me now..
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1.) outfit- *NewBoho*, 2.) hair:”D!va”” Hair “Tomoko2” (Type A)(Blown diamond), and sunglasses: Izzie’s – Oversized Sunglasses (brown lenses)
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*hugs* I hope these last blog posts have been somewhat therapeutic for you. You’re stronger than you think you are Tosha. There may be darkness now but a candle still burns within you.